I would really like your opinion on something, Dear Reader. It’s not really a big issue, but I am very interested in people’s (possibly different) takes on it. Also I’ve been out of the game for eight years and need some help. Also also: I am socially awkward in general. Backstory first, question to follow.
So I am single. This is not a great source of tension for me. I am okay with being single; it is nice to not have to share my Lucky Charms. I am not actively looking for a boyfriend right now. (Also I don’t know how to write the following sentence without feeling like an egotistical bitch, but…) Sometimes I do meet people at school or work or when I’m out with friends and I absolutely dread the moment when (if) they show more than passing interest in me.
This is probably an issue for a whole ‘nother post (eh, fuckit), but I can almost guarantee that I am not interested. It’s not that they’re not nice or attractive or have the potential to be a really great boyfriend. It’s just that I don’t have the time or inclination to find out. I’ve got my own shit to worry about right now and frankly, the energy that it takes to get to know someone when, in all likeliness, it won’t work out long-term, is just something I don’t have right now. More importantly, I don’t have the energy to let someone get to know me. I know that that in itself should be effortless– “Just be yourself! How hard is that?!”– but no, it takes a lot for me to really let someone in and I don’t want to risk letting someone in just to get brushed aside. Granted, I may be bitter given some recent personal events that made me feel uhhh… less than desirable. But I’m also just being honest.
SO, wow, that was an unnecessary deviation into my fucked-up head. Now that we’ve got that out of the way…
I was thinking of wearing a ring on my “wedding” finger to avoid those awkward moments when someone has put themselves out there and asked me on a date and I want to say no. I really stress about the saying-no part because I want to convey to the person that it’s likely not them, that I’m just not in a dating frame of mind right now because blah blah blah refer to paragraph three, but yanno, that’s not really stuff you explain to a stranger even if you’re trying to spare their feelings.
Questions: Is that tacky to wear a fake wedding ring just to avoid being hit on? (Sub-question: If you say the ring thing is tacky, what one-line response can I use that is both polite and kind but also says “I’m not interested”?) Am I just a total fucking coward by wanting to avoid that awkwardness?